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About four months ago, I started doing daily Kegel routines to improve and intensify my orgasms. They work. Today, doing sit-ups on a bench at the gym, I began to feel strange. As I pushed upward on each rep, my body felt and tenser and tenser, like...frustrated and elated, and I was vividly aware of the inseam of my shorts between my legs. Right before the...peak, I finally realized what was happening. Stifling a moan, I threw myself forward, trying to avoid lying arched and spread-eagled on my back. I ended up crashing to the floor, clutching myself. Once I could think again, I realized people were running toward me and yelling about seizures and heart attacks and 911. I curled into the fetal position. I was raised to be deeply, deeply ashamed of every aspect of my sexuality, and though I've recovered enough now to be adventurous IN the bedroom, I'm still a ball of shame in public. Hearing sirens, I wished for death. Finally, when the paramedics were about to grab me, knowing a I couldn't afford the monetary devastation of an ER visit, I sat up and yelled, "IT WAS AN ORGASM I'M FINE."